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Starting to talk with your ex is a never good idea, especially when you were never entirely confident about your breakup in the first place. 

My ex started talking to me again, and there I found myself going online more often than needed and with more enthusiasm doused with inappropriateness. And this is dangerous. Because my feelings are being rekindled, and I am sure they are not being returned. 

If you break up with someone, then I believe that no matter how much you might argue, you did it for a reason. The guy can be the sweetest or the greatest, but there is that one thing that came between the two of you. This should never be forgotten, because darling, the first time might be excusable as an honest mistake, but the same mistake is by choice.

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Next time you see her

Because this is something I wish he’d do.

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Hi, ex. or not.

I saw him at school today. I guess it was his first day back, and of course I ran into him as he was walking into school, just my wonderful, beautiful luck. I was surrounded by my classmates, all hurrying to our languages class. He was still tall, still towering over everyone, he still wore the same red shirt that I had grown accustomed to, searching for it in crowded rooms, he was still, him. He avoided my eyes. I avoided his. There were twenty people between us, but the space between us felt narrow, and when he turned away it was a slap in the face. I saw him multiple times throughout the day, it’s funny how when we were dating we didn’t seem to see enough of each other, yet now it seems like fate keeps clashing us together. 😛 Stop it, fate. I will kick you.

He lives right next to my school. I was going to my friend’s house who also lives right next doors, (Ryan) with Miguel to print the cover jacket for his mixtape that he made for my friend, Sacha. I looked back, and I saw him there. He was looking at the art department, obviously he had seen me too. He laid back, waiting for me to disappear, and I did.

I did.

 

What the hell is this. From everything, to nothing. From lovers to strangers. From friends to awkward acquaintances. 

Will this feeling ever go away? I don’t miss him anymore, and I know I made the right decision. But this awkwardness is intolerable. Will things get better? Will we be able to meet each other’s eyes, level, and raise the ends of our lips to a warm, accepting smile?

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Facebook, you’re bugging me. I admit, you’re quite cool now that you ask me different questions every time I log on, but this question? I could unleash a whole load of angry, sappy statements that would turn the cold world of virtual ‘friends’ against me.
How am I feeling?
I’m feeling downright crappy. Listening to Ed Sheeran, confused as to whether I’m hungry or not, contemplating to whether I did the right thing or not by breaking up with my ex, suffocating by the fact that my best friend likes me but I cannot return the favor, annoyed that my orange nail polish is from the local fleamarket and I had to paint 4 nasty coats on for it to produce any color, and realizing that I am probably cranky from the lack of food, so I’m going to go scavenge the kitchen for some source of satisfaction; at least my body can get it. 😛 haha.
I will feast on cocopops whilst waving the spoon in an angry Moroccan ritual dance to Kiss with a fist- Florence and the Machine. Jokes, I know not of any Moroccan dance?! o.O

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